If you follow me on twitter you would have seen me tweet this yesterday:
C: you stopped blogging! W: And jogging. Me: yeah I haven’t been doing any of the ‘ogging’s. W: Snogging? Me: ok 2/3 of the oggings.
— Jess Versteeg (@jesslin) October 4, 2013
In the last week a bunch of people have bugged me (or simply asked) what was up with my lack of blogging (or jogging for that matter).
The simple answer is: I don’t know. That’s also the complicated answer. It’s not that I’m too busy (Mrs. Buxton!). It’s worse than than. I have been uninspired and demotivated.
I still care about these things. I just lack drive. This is a weird state for me to be in. It is rare for me to lack drive to write. It’s rare for me to lack drive to learn.
So this week I was thinking a lot about what I could do to stay motivated.
Dynamic Determination
Dynamic Determination is a leadership quality we teach a lot about at work and one that I’ve been working on in my life these last few weeks. I am determined to not let The Oggings fall totally by the wayside. The process of figuring out how is the tricky part. Do I use positive reinforcement and reward myself with Fleur de Sel every time I do one? Do I use negative reinforcement and deprive myself of something good for not having done one of these things?
I know that in my life there will be plenty of times when I don’t Want To do X or Y. Right now I’m learning how to find or make the Want To. Self-discipline is hard enough for me when I have motivation. At this point in time when I lack it, that self-discipline is nowhere to be found. But I’m on the hunt.