I still love lamp!

lovelamp

A few weeks ago a friend asked me how things were going with my lamp since I blogged about it. Well, let me tell you: I’m a fool. I started feeling bad as early as the first week of October this year which is earlier than usual. So I started using it regularly in November. That went well. And then December came.

I stopped wanting to. My motivation went through the floor. Every morning I thought to myself, “I don’t really want to…” Then I didn’t. POOR CHOICES.

Here’s the thing: there are one of two mistakes we make when we’re feeling the winter blues (or for any other mental health related things).

  1. I’m feeling good so I don’t need it. Wrong. We’re feeling good because the treatment is working. That doesn’t mean STOP, it means CONTINUE.
  2. I don’t feel like it/I don’t want to. It means the treatment isn’t yet working because motivation is low. At least that’s how it is for my personal experience.

Learn to trust the data

I need to learn to trust data in front of me rather than my feelings. The data of the last few years says: you’re not yourself at Christmas and your family thinks you’re this bump on a log who doesn’t like being with people and doing basically anything but eat and play Dutch Blitz. That’s not who I am normally (though, let’s be serious, I’ll eat and play Dutch Blitz any time). This experience this past winter tells me I need to ask my husband to help me not listen to my feelings or my own head because it isn’t trustworthy.

This past year I tried to do better than the previous year. I did! Sort of!

So here’s to learning about how to function optimally, healthily and to asking for help in doing that.

Do you have a hard time reading or accepting the data that you see about your health? How can you fix that? If you’d like to share, leave a comment or leave some feedback here in the comments.

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  • http://depressiontimeblog.wordpress.com depression nation

    yep. went off more than a few times like that. i feel fine. i can do it. will NEVER again w/o a doctor to wind me back down and test things out. there be dragons (bad ones) that way.

    • http://jessversteeg.ca Jess Versteeg

      Yeah, it’s surprising how daft we can be. Especially when we’re told “now, if you feel good, don’t stop what you’re doing.” We’re too optimistic to think that advice is really for us.

  • http://depressiontimeblog.wordpress.com depression nation

    yep. went off more than a few times like that. i feel fine. i can do it. will NEVER again w/o a doctor to wind me back down and test things out. there be dragons (bad ones) that way.

    • http://jessversteeg.ca Jess Versteeg

      Yeah, it’s surprising how daft we can be. Especially when we’re told “now, if you feel good, don’t stop what you’re doing.” We’re too optimistic to think that advice is really for us.